Los Restos de un Humano
As today… there were days, difficult mornings, I lost my strength. I felt tired, abandoned and out of faith. It’s hard for me to keep standing, hard to wait for the future to come and take me. Sincerely, I can be strong, not strong enough to avoid memories. And it hurts as hope fades away. I feel like a bird that wants to fly. I do not feel sure, so I stop. I stayed in loneliness waiting for a try. Trying to get out of hell, I fall. I can’t find myself, lost my sight. There is no way for me to get out of here. I have one chance to destroy my fear. Upon it, my heart was afraid of me. I have thought about me and my future. I have never been sure of anything. I think something; I believe a different thing. I hear other things, and I see no way out of here. My life is not easy; I’m afraid to not know. I am afraid not to be accepted by the Lord as everybody rejected my love. I am as the abandoned human on war. Like the grain of sand lost in the desert, like the sight lost between the stars, and the sound that faded in the silence. I wish to scream but I fear no one can hear. I am sick of fighting against fear. I am tired of living in this wild world. I am tired and I can’t smile to the Lord. I am not happy and I can’t do anything. I am dying of fear. I am afraid to show what I feel. 2009. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.