– the words of what i feel


a poem from

walking towards happiness

 one night i lost my will to love
 and without doubts 
 my reasoning i drowned
 i lost what i never had 
 all for wanting to forget
 and i gave myself to death 
 without saying goodbye
 
 consumed sins in my will to perish
 drill my life and take away my feelings
 oxidized sins do not force me to live
 i only suffer writing the words of what i feel
 
 i want to murder my bitter time
 destroy it entirely until i see it fades away
 i want to go to sleep and never wake up
 to be trapped in my disdains of endless loneliness
 
 i am no more than a crazy poet 
 who wants to go to sleep
 i want to turn off the light in my eyes 
 and never again see
 i have lived plenty in such short time 
 i have no reason to breathe
 life finished my desire to continue living like this
 
 i have lost my entire soul 
 fighting in this dark hole
 in my eternal pedestal 
 i have lost every hope
 i walk exhausted of a life i never asked for
 and i will die unsettled 
 because i could not do more
 
 because i let my sins 
 dominate my whole being
 because i escaped 
 and ran away from my feelings
 because i did not fought for what i believed in
 because i was so weak 
 and let my blood ran freely
 
 this eternal time 
 has poisoned my reasoning
 it has corrupted my soul 
 without any remedy
 
 i no longer wish to live 
 being who i am every morning
 i live trapped in my fears 
 that grow by the minute helplessly
 
 i am not who i once was 
 and i am ready to leave
 i truly want to never return to this world 
 i want to rest in peace
 i have lived plenty now i only have pain 
 hatred and suffering in my veins
 
my desire to live 
a life i never asked for 
has disappeared 
 


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